What's going on everyone, I am making an update on My life for You all and maybe help instigate some wondersome thoughts of who I truly am...

First, I need to start out that I have moderate experience with psychedelics. I first tripped on LSD and mushrooms in 2007 [just curious and fitting in], went to many raves / parties every weekend and popped xtc every time... I feel the party lifestyle brought about My courage and interest in furthering that spark that psychedelic substances seem to scintillate. ~ Around 2011, I was introduced to the grateful dead and what "real" lsd and family are like. I had experience growing cannabis and was growing mushrooms at the time. Really, and I mean REALLY dove deep into My spirituality and the reason of life. I felt like I reached a certain pinnacle that transcended for DAYS, if not weeks... Perhaps a solid 8 weeks? I am not kidding, I felt like I had constructed a very complex but simple narcissistic prophetic meaning for Myself. I didn't feel like I was some sort of ascended master but I felt like what I experienced happened for the most divine reasons possible. As I kept getting older, this idea and ego I constructed of Myself turned to reality and everyone around Me turned into this "hallucination"; of sorts... I took a long break from psychedelics because of this megalomania that seemed to be driving Me insane [beginning of 2014- end of 2016]. affordable bridesmaid wears for wedding party

~Because of this ego "struggle" and said "over analyzations", I made a pact with Myself and the divine [fall of 2016] that I would start taking LSD again to bring Myself back to clarity; IF this paranoid / megalomania would not go away... Also on top of this, I was convinced that the world was going to end. Since the world in fact did not end at said time. I followed through with that "pact" I made with the divine and I bought a sheet of WoW.

I ended up getting mysteriously acquainted with that sheet and microdoses at the beginning of 2017. This kick started a brand new journey that I never expected and it packed a punch, or two, or three... The more I got into this sheet, the more things started to happen... After each and every microdose, it brought on a new perspective to LSD I have never seen before. The sheet contained very pure and quality LSD. It seemed a lot more potent and euphoric than any acid I ate back when I first tripped or 2013. I feel like I became obsessed with this quality acid and became a connoisseur of sorts. Each and every trip and/or microdose manifested another step, or piece to the puzzle. It got very exciting that I forgot about how many days went by. I experienced some of the most interesting things that cannot be explained. And before I or anyone even knew it... I was out of this sheet.

I ended up FREAKING OUT because I essentially went on an LSD bender... for days.
Ever since this sheet, I have lost trust with MANY people, including My own parents.
I do not trust anyone. I am surprised God has allowed Me to buy even a strip to continue His plan with My life and microdosing...

Microdosing has been quite a journey the past 3 or 4 months; well year...

Always contemplating whether or not to redose, get more acid, take a higher dose, work around work schedules...It has been a good while since I have taken a solid dose of LSD...

It's been about 3 weeks since My last trip, it was about 200 - 215 ugs.

Had some great insight and wondered if I should do that dose weekly.
Obviously I did not continue but I decided to keep dropping microdoses. [2-3 days]
I got to the point where My own consciousness wanted to take a break from acid for a while, just a few days ago... Funny thing is... I cannot stop thinking about when My next strong-heavy LSD trip is going to be. I am not hesitant on taking that high of a dose, however I am very cautious of the set and setting I currently have to trip with... Which is probably why My intuition has guided Me away from doses this high at this point of My life right now...

I am not scared to take a strong - heavy dose. Shit I am not even scared to take 1,200 - 1,500 micrograms. It's just My life is literally not allowing Me to do it right now. And if My life is leading Me on to take a dose that high right now... I know MY OWN choices are going to fucking make things really interesting... Oh how I wish I could have a sheet again...